moments to share, moments to care

Jau visi krogi ciet,
Un vairaak nav, kur iet.
Es staavu valjaa viss
Pie aizsleegjota loga.

Ir klusaaks palicis,
Viss gaishums izdzisis,
Vien meeness meetajas
Kaa nozaudeeta poga.

and yet i had the most awesome night this year. best friend and a special person by my side, we crossed the national river Daugava walking, were drunk, took pictures, almost broke our bones, froze to death and watched the first buses leave at sixish. seems life hasn't stopped.

and btw thanks for the pupoli. seems there is a hope for a spring after this fucking deep dark winter that i am stuck in.

the woods are lovely dark and deep
but i have promises to keep
and miles to walk before i sleep

and miles to walk before i sleep..

no, actually i just thank all the things that rip me apart. without them i wouldn't have any inspiration.

somehow i got this wave of will to live. and start changing the fucking greyness in my life.

the only people that care about me, i'm either not allowed or simply can't meet.

life is unfair sometimes.

eisai kali fili

maybe not from the person i'd wanna hear it from, but makes me happy anyway.

i have no idea how it happened, but it seems i've lost my spine.
somewhere among those weeks of sickness and health i've lost all my willpower.
seems i cannot go a week without booze or junk [food].
is it the boredom that has taken over or is it just general tiredness of life despite the daily good mood i'm having?

maybe going back to gym will set me back on track.

what if not?

that's life. whatever you do, you gotta pay.

sometimes you can't find what you want, but then you get a better bargain for a better price.

sometimes you overpay and fall for the commercial.

sometimes you get what you pay for. and sometimes you don't.

but everything has a price

no irony lately.

does it mean i have't learned anything at all?