moments to share, moments to care
adult children are used to a very high stress level. living in constant dysfunction and drama makes it our natural habitat. first 18 years of our lives we spend in humiliation - that is when our personality is formed. our parents often told us we were not not good enough - even when we had achieved a level that was higher than average.
now being sober i try to avoid stress and drama at all costs. my life has become quite calm. it will take at least another year to feel stable, but now, looking back, i see clearly how i was drawn to drama, closing my eyes and jumping into events, acting without thinking. there is a way out though, and it starts with some very basic things. good sleep. good food. breathing exercises, walks, nature. reading. listening to music. those are simple but healing things. when thinking what last 12 months have consisted of, it is surprising i'm alive.
anything to stay calm and carry on.
i no longer seek excitement. i only seek peace.
Skrivet av arlona, 2018-10-25 17:14