moments to share, moments to care
victo r- y
for the first time, i stood up for myself.
this was so unlike me. usually i would pretend everything is fine for 10-15 minutes or until the threat was somewhat over, then started crying, complaining, playing the victim, pointing fingers, blaming and feeling sorry for myself.
not this time.
in a crowd of people i didn't know. against a man twice my age. which i will have to meet at least once a week for a very very long time.
he was sitting and judging me and others for being sick and doing sick things.
yes, i am sick, this is why i am here - to get better.
no one messes with my recovery.
no one messes with our group.
no one can belittle me.
no one can make me doubt my values.
and the funny thing - i wasn't even angry. i kept my peace, boundaries, self respect, even respect towards him asking well defined questions out of genuine interest and providing a calm explanation. i didn't ask him to shut up or to leave, i wasn't ironic, attacking, assuming or declaring. but he went ballistic on me, and that just made me feel compassion for him.
i think my new awesome hair have added some edge to my personality :)
today i thank my Higher Power for the strength, faith, confidence, self respect, boundaries and a new healthy outlook on life and other people provided to me.
Skrivet av arlona, 2018-08-21 20:26
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