moments to share, moments to care

the most loyal followers of these lines might have noticed that to a certain extent a personality struggle has been intertwining throughout the years. always something to improve, always something to change.
looking back it seems that sometimes this battle has been slightly chaotic with a low ratio of efficiency. it has lacked structure and guidance, and that might be one of the explanation why some of the things have been re-learned repeatedly (or never really acquired at all).

despite the positive aspects, there is one huge flaw always following like a shadow: usually showing it's ugly face in the brightest moments, spoiling them mercilessly, and this trait is immaturity.

so there it is - a personal declaration of war on immaturity.
here are the few steps i have set to win the war:
1. don't be a bully - verbal, social or physical - cut the inappropriate comments and hiding behind the argument of being "honest" (this reminds me, i should take my own advice sometimes)
2. avoid gossip, rumors, and talking about others behind their backs (i really thought this was no longer an issue in my life, until a week ago i realized that this nasty habit had regained place in my life, shame shame shame on me)
3. accept personal responsibility (admit wrongdoings, accept consequences of actions, control behavior)
4. stop being the center of attention (also something that comes and goes in my personality, but it sure as hell feels greater to be the observer)
5. have some confidence (there was this great saying - before you lash out on yourself, calling names, think if you would ever say those things to a friend. if you wouldn't say it to a friend - why tear yourself down?)

and that's for starters. textbook stuff, bit there comes a time when one has to go back to the basic abcs.
it is time for another change and for some hard work. magic happens outside the comfort zone, right?

Skrivet av arlona, 2016-05-05 15:10